Often I ramble aimlessly but every once in a while the stars align and I have a brilliant moment. Sarcasm and satire is the way I roll; throw in a bit of uninhibited awe and you've got your basic artsy nature freak grammar geek. And sometimes I'm a musical genius. But I don't label.
Unraveling
I feel like I’m slowly, but surely, unraveling. There SO MANY things I need to do, but I don’t do them. I need a to do list stapled to my forehead. I’m starting to get really nervous about the first two days of school. I have it SOMEWHAT planned out, but not all the way. Instead of planning, I’ve been working on my room. Today I redid about 3 bulletin boards. I can’t believe how many freaking bulletin boards are in my room. And they take FOREVER. I spent an hour and a half the other day just punching out letters to spell out my rules. An HOUR and a HALF. That didn’t even include the time it took to put them up on the board, in straight lines, spacing them ever so carefully so they didn’t run into one another. I got a document camera the other day. Cool. But I haven’t tried using it, aside from what the librarian showed me. I haven’t looked through any of the books the kids use, and I haven’t made any PowerPoints or SMART notebook files to use on the first day to make introductions, give directions, etc. I haven’t picked out any songs for them to listen to the first two days. I don’t have a big binder of rosters put together for each class, or my sticker chart up. I also feel like it’s going to be very hard to balance school and home life once this year starts. I’ve been behind on laundry, cleaning, grocery shopping, and it’s a miracle I’ve gotten my bills all paid on time. I feel like I have no system of organization at home. I still don’t have curtains hung up, and I moved in July 10. :O
I feel like my only hope of getting shit done is to start working out again. I need to be moving, 24/7. I’ve spent so much time in my room lately getting things ready that by the time I get home it’s about 8pm and then I have to eat dinner. I’m too tired and hungry to cook so I get McDonald’s/Subway/Sonic/Pizza Hut/Taco Bell. And I can tell I’ve been putting on weight. Ugh. It makes me feel so lethargic and wasteful and kind of like a loser, to be honest. How am I supposed to pretend that everything’s just peachy for the parents coming in to open house Wed. night when I feel like everything’s falling apart?!?! Act. Fake it till you make it. Please let me just get through 2 days without feeling like I’m going to have an aneurysm!
